Sometimes it really feels very hurting to know the person you loved have someone else in mind. Especially when the person your loved one had in mind is your best friend. That is how I'm feeling that day when Chizuru called me up to the school rooftop.

She was in tears, crying real badly. I had a hard time comforting her before she spoke her first sentence, my heart shattered in so many pieces that is was practically impossible to put it back together.

' Ryu.. I think I've fallen in love with Renji. However, he already had a girlfriend. 'She continued to cry. Seeing her crying like this, I couldn’t find the right words to say. It seemed like one small touch and she would be broken into pieces. She was like an angel in my life, and angels shouldn’t cry.. How I wish that I was the one suffering.

I didn’t think that she would have liked Renji. I always thought she felt the same way as I did. However, I was so wrong.. I took a deep breath before I spoke, ' Renji's girlfriend, is Nozumu. She's one year our senior. She's very welcomed with guys all the time, just like Renji with girls . Many said they were a very matching couple, but.. ' Chizuru's cried even loudly, that it cut off my sentence.

I started to wonder if I did the right thing telling her who Renji’s girlfriend was.
I placed my hand on her back , and patted her back. She just kept crying. ' I can lend you my shoulder if you want. ' I smiled at her. It started to drizzle then.

' Come on, it's time we should head back to class. ' I told her. But she shook her head, ' Let me stay here for a while, it's been a long time ever since I've been under the rain. Why don't you go back first? ' I refused.

How could I leave her, alone just by herself, when she needed someone beside her? Her soul felt so empty, that even the slightest breeze seemed like it would carry it away leave only her body, an empty shell. Even though the one she needs wasn’t me, I was glad that I was there for her.

'You know, i was thinking if the one i fell in love with wasn't Renji'. She whispered as tears continue to roll down her cheeks. I made no reply and continued to listen. 'Ryu, you're so easy to love. If only the one I love was you..' I could hear my own heart breaking. I couldn't bear to see her cry and say those words anymore. 'You can't help who you fall in love with.’ I said. Just like me, so hopelessly in love with her..

Just when I reached out my hands to wipe off her tears, I felt her body temperature. I put my own forehead against hers to check if she was having a fever. She pushed me away, 'What are you doing?' She blushed. My heart skipped a beat when i saw her blush. But this isn't a time to think about this. 'You're having a fever. Lets go.' I said. She stood up but fell back to the bench the next second.

She was so weak that she didn't even have the energy to stand. I offered to piggyback her and carried her to her home. Even though it was soft, i could hear her whisper Renji's name as she slowly fall asleep on my back. God, she loved Renji so much that she even thought about him when she was sick. I wished that she could open up and let her sadness fly.. Suddenly, this feeling grew in my heart, Jealousy and Envy.