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Broken by Brendon Chua.

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I'm Brendon Chua Wei Liang. This story is from a Composition I did for my homework. My buddy, Hean, helped me with it. So I want to thank him a lot . Helps from Karyee was really appreciated too. (: It's not a true story though, so there's a lot of stuffs to imagine and think about . Other than that , please enjoy the story ! :D

Chapter 1 :

My name is Ryuzaki, I'm only 22 this year but I've been through heartaches during my teenage life that caused me to lose hope and trust in love & marriage. Just because of this girl, Chizuru, whom I met in my High School. Now I'm sitting at our usual bench near the basketball court that we loved most. Mine & Chizuru's, the love of my life.

I never knew what love was all about. Until I met Chizuru, she taught me lots of stuffs. One of them was The greatest grief comes from despair. At first I didn't really understand this sentence but now, I understand it so well that it hurts even when I thought about it. Before I met her, life was nothing. My life was Basketball. The sound of dribbling basketball sound like my heartbeat. I feel alive only when I'm playing basketball. But she changed me totally. And after all that, she left me here,Broken. Those heartaches she gave me,after years weren't only the one that hurts most. Those years I've felt happy with her but there were times spending through those years of heartaches were really total pain and despair that caused my tears to fall each time I reminisce about it.

I've loved Chizuru like I've never loved anyone before. Loving her was like a duty of my everyday life. I gave my heart and soul to her. I've given her everything. So much that I've nothing else to give her anymore. She was the sweetest girl I've ever met. I have given her so much of my love and done so much for her, but never once I would received her love in return. So I did what I felt was right, I kept on showering Chizuru my love and never asked for her love in return. Even though the past was a devastating and saddening one, I have never regretted any move I made to love Chizuru more. And as days past , my love for her grew stronger and till now it still remains the same. My story begins when I met Chizuru 7 years ago...

Chapter 2 :

' Class, please keep quiet for a moment. I've got an important announcement to make, ' My teacher , Goku-sensei said.Our class began to quiet down.' There will be a transfer student in our class, her name is Chizuru. Please give her your warmest welcome and treat her with care. Hmm Chizuru, why don't you sit beside Ryuzaki ? Renji is absent today, so you can take his place for today. I will get him a new seat tomorrow.' I looked up at Goku-sensei, I didn't really heard what sensei just said, I was busy messaging Renji with my phone when he was resting at home.

'Thanks Goku-Sensei,' Chizuru thanked Goku-sensei with a very sweet smile. She sat beside me, and took out her lime green coloured pencil case. I smiled at her and introduced myself, ' My name is Ryuzaki, and I like the colour of your pencil case.' I found myself quite dumb though, I didn't really know what to say at that time too. Chizuru isn't very pretty, neither she is ugly. She's just a typical average girl who looks extremely cute when she smiles. I found out that Chizuru has the same interest as me, Basketball. I'm not from the Basketball School Team in this school but I still liked it a lot. Chizuru is a really funny and cute girl, I must admit. Her smile was the sweetest sin.

It was reccess time, I afraid that Chizuru might get lost in school so I accompanied her to the canteen. She bought a cheese and ham sandwich for herself and me and went to the basketball court. She sat at a bench, and looked at the students playing basketball. I went to sit beside her, we begin to eat our sandwiches and talked about basketball like two friends who never kept in contact and met 10 years later.

' Oh yah, Chizuru, may I know why did you transfered over to our high school ? ' , I asked .
' Oh , my parents wanted to move apartment so that they could avoid some 'kaypoh' neighbours in my previous apartment. ' , she replied.

After school, we went to the library at the nearby shopping mall to slack. And she told me something that really made my day. ' Ryuzaki, thanks for today, I felt lost when I first stepped into this school. Thanks to you, I felt less afraid now. You're my best friend, and I like you a lot ! ' Her eyes closed and a big grin on her face is all I see.

I felt so happy. I can't remember how it went. She looked like everything i wanted. I'm not sure what is this feeling growing inside me. I didn't bother to think much about it. All i could think of that night was her words, actions and most importantly, her smiles. However, things aren't the way it seems. I've totally misunderstood what she meant. I didn't know until the day when i first knew how a heart could hurt so much...

Chapter 3 :

It was the second day of school, Renji turned up for school today. He gave that surprised look, point to his seat and said, ' Whose bag is this ? Look so girlish and gay. & I've never seen it before . Don't tell me it's yours, Ryuzaki .. ' I jumped back, and replied,

' Of..Course it's not mine! How could it be mine ? Oh yah, forgot to tell you yesterday, there's a new transfer student yesterday, she transfered over to our class, her name is Chizuru.. '

My sentence got cut off by Chizuru's voice, she's holding a Strawberry Pocky Pocky on her hands. ' Hey there, my name is Chizuru, I supposed you're Renji right ? '
' Yes I am , ' Renji replied. The school bell rang and Goku-Sensei went in the class. He brought in a extra table and chair. ' Renji, please move this chair & table behind Ichigo. That's your new seat. Renji did as what he was told. He gave Chizuru a stupid look and went to sit behind.

' Oh my god, so he is Renji ! He look so cute & he's so good looking ! ' , Chizuru exclaimed . I just gave her a smile and thought to myself, ' Well , not only her. Every other girls in our school think so too . ' I then heaved a sigh. I didn't really pay attention during lessons, as Chizuru kept turning behind to steal a look at Renji and she began to flood me with questions about Renji.'

What ?! He plays basketball too ?! Woahhhh! He's my idol ! ' , Chizuru exclaimed with a big smile on her face. ' I thought it was normal for her to feel like this as she likes basketball too. Renji was the basketball captain of our high school. His basketball skills and accuracy is the best in our school. He's 175cm tall, unlike me, I was only 160cm. That is why I didn't make it to the basketball team.

The recess bell rang, Renji left the class with a basketball in his hands. Chizuru held my hands and said, ' C'mon hurry, let's go to the basketball court ! ' I felt so happy at that time and thought Chizuru is just being excited to see what is takes to be a basketball captain. We bought the same usual cheese sandwich and sat at the bench near the basketball court.

Suddenly, Chizuru asked me, ' Ryu, can you teach me how to play basketball ? ' I steadily agreed to teach her. I felt warmth at my heart but I didn't know Chizuru wasn't learning basketball for my sake. It wasn't. Since then, everyday after school I've been guiding her to play basketball after school.I didn't know how Chizuru felt for me, but as days past, I knew I have fallen in love with her. I guessed Chizuru must have liked me too, however I was so wrong. Things weren't like that, and thinking of it now makes my heart shattered like glass pieces that fell onto the ground .

Sometimes it really feels very hurting to know the person you loved have someone else in mind. Especially when the person your loved one had in mind is your best friend. That is how I'm feeling that day when Chizuru called me up to the school rooftop.

She was in tears, crying real badly. I had a hard time comforting her before she spoke her first sentence, my heart shattered in so many pieces that is was practically impossible to put it back together.

' Ryu.. I think I've fallen in love with Renji. However, he already had a girlfriend. 'She continued to cry. Seeing her crying like this, I couldn’t find the right words to say. It seemed like one small touch and she would be broken into pieces. She was like an angel in my life, and angels shouldn’t cry.. How I wish that I was the one suffering.

I didn’t think that she would have liked Renji. I always thought she felt the same way as I did. However, I was so wrong.. I took a deep breath before I spoke, ' Renji's girlfriend, is Nozumu. She's one year our senior. She's very welcomed with guys all the time, just like Renji with girls . Many said they were a very matching couple, but.. ' Chizuru's cried even loudly, that it cut off my sentence.

I started to wonder if I did the right thing telling her who Renji’s girlfriend was.
I placed my hand on her back , and patted her back. She just kept crying. ' I can lend you my shoulder if you want. ' I smiled at her. It started to drizzle then.

' Come on, it's time we should head back to class. ' I told her. But she shook her head, ' Let me stay here for a while, it's been a long time ever since I've been under the rain. Why don't you go back first? ' I refused.

How could I leave her, alone just by herself, when she needed someone beside her? Her soul felt so empty, that even the slightest breeze seemed like it would carry it away leave only her body, an empty shell. Even though the one she needs wasn’t me, I was glad that I was there for her.

'You know, i was thinking if the one i fell in love with wasn't Renji'. She whispered as tears continue to roll down her cheeks. I made no reply and continued to listen. 'Ryu, you're so easy to love. If only the one I love was you..' I could hear my own heart breaking. I couldn't bear to see her cry and say those words anymore. 'You can't help who you fall in love with.’ I said. Just like me, so hopelessly in love with her..

Just when I reached out my hands to wipe off her tears, I felt her body temperature. I put my own forehead against hers to check if she was having a fever. She pushed me away, 'What are you doing?' She blushed. My heart skipped a beat when i saw her blush. But this isn't a time to think about this. 'You're having a fever. Lets go.' I said. She stood up but fell back to the bench the next second.

She was so weak that she didn't even have the energy to stand. I offered to piggyback her and carried her to her home. Even though it was soft, i could hear her whisper Renji's name as she slowly fall asleep on my back. God, she loved Renji so much that she even thought about him when she was sick. I wished that she could open up and let her sadness fly.. Suddenly, this feeling grew in my heart, Jealousy and Envy.

The next day of school, Chizuru did not turn up for school. I left her a short message when Goku-Sensei was teaching us about Science. I could not concentrate in class because I kept worrying about Chizuru.

' Brrr Brrrrr ', the sound of my phone vibrating came out of my pocket. I tried to keep it low, preventing Goku-Sensei from noticing me.

' Okay sure , come over to my house and leave before 7pm, my parents are coming back around that time ', she replied. I patiently waited for the rest of the lessons to end.' Bye Ryuzaki , I'll call you later when I reached the basketball court at Sunshine Place . ' Renji waved goodbye to me, asking me to join him for a few matches of basketball later on. I waved goodbye to him and set off to Chizuru's house.

' My god, you look terrible! ' , I exclaimed in great shock as I looked at Chizuru. Looking torn and broken, her right hand was on the doorknob as the other was on her forehead. I quickly helped her out to her sofa. My heart felt very painful at that time. Seeing her like this made me felt bad and miserable for telling her about Renji & his girlfriend.

I turned on the tv, to prevent both me & Chizuru from feeling bored. Five minutes later, Chizuru broke the silence. "Yawnnnn," Chizuru fell over, her head landing on my shoulder, her eyes slowly closing.

I smiled and turned the t.v. off, pulling Chizuru gently towards me and closing my eyes as well, the both of us listening to the thunder and the sound of rain dancing on the window panes .

' Hold me, like you held on to life, ' a familiar tune playing around me. I slowly opened my eyes , unwillingly. I realised it was my phone. I quickly answered the phone as I did not want to wake Chizuru up. She looked like an angel while sleeping - the cutest angel I've ever seen. The way she slept is something that will be etched in my mind for a long time.

' Hey Ryu, I'm down at Sunshine Place's basketball court already, along with Ichigo and some others. '' Alright, I'll be there soon . ' He hung up the call.
I looked outside the window, and realised the rain had already stopped.

' Who's that ? ' Chizuru asked , stretching her arms and yawning at the same time.
'Renji' I replied, and moving my shoulder to relieve the numbness that Chizuru had caused while she had laid on it.
' Oh , I overhead the conversation, can I tag along ? '
' Sure , why not ? ' I tried to fake a smile , knowing why Chizuru wanted to tag along. Mainly because of Renji.

She went to get change, and applied some make up, to cover up her fatigue expression. I felt really sad because she could do anything to make herself look the best in front of Renji, while me, I was just a good friend to her.

' Hey Ryu, what took you so long ? and .. Isn't that Chizuru ? Why are you with her ? Don't tell me ... ' , Renji gave me that look like as if me & Chizuru were together.

' Nonsense, we ain't together. However it was you... OUCH! ' Chizuru pinched my arm .

' It was me what .. ? '

' Nothing much actually . Er, ain't we here to play basketball ? '

' Yeah, next team. Next turn are ours. Chizuru, you want to play too ?

'' Nah, ' I answered Renji before Chizuru does, ' She just woke up, you don't want her to lose the match for us yea? '

I whispered into Chizuru's ears, ' You better not play, you don't want to end up fainting again. Sit over at the bench there. ' She gave me a disappointed look before she headed for the bench.

Sigh, that bench, was the usual bench that we loved most..

' Ryu! Our turn now. Get ready. ' Renji shouted.I patted on Chizuru's head before I left her. During the match, every minute, every second, if I'd had the chance, I'd steal a look of Chizuru. However, each and everytime I did so, her eyes are always on Renji.

' Game set ! ' , Renji said as he shot in a beautiful 3-pointer . Chizuru clapped happily and cheering for Renji's beautiful shot and our team's victory.

Chizuru went over to Renji with a tissue on her hands, ' Here, let me help you. ' ' It's okay, I can wipe my sweat myself ' Renji rejected Chizuru's kind offer.

As Renji walked over to where he put his bags, I saw Chizuru feeling dejected. I tried to cheer Chizuru up by teasing her, ' It's okay Chizuru, even though Renji don't need your help. You can still help me.
'' Tsk, go away! " , Chizuru stepped on my foot and stuck her tongue out.

I smiled , while in my heart, I knew I was nothing to her ...

It was 7pm and we all decided to go home. I sent Chizuru to her doorstep as I didn't want her to faint on her way back home without anyone realising, only when I was beside her, I could ensured her to be safe and sound.

Around 7.30pm, on my way back home, Renji called me.' Hey Ryu, I broke up with Nozumu already.

'' What happened ?! " , I was shocked, I did not expect them to break at all .

' She is an idiot, total retard. Just because I forgot to leave a message when I reached home, she made a big fuss about it. How petty right ? ' I could tell that he was feeling pretty pissed off at that time.

' Well, sorry to hear about it. ' , I replied .

' Don't be. She's a slut. I also heard about her kissing Hiro in a True and Dare game. What the hell. I'm glad I broke up with her because it's impossible to continue a relationship with a slut! ' , he sounded really enraged.

*****

After that phone call, I thought about it a lot. Because after Chizuru get to know about Renji's break up, she would really tried to attract Renji's attention. And who knows, Renji might also got attracted and both of them, living happily ever after ? ...And that really did happened...

The next day in class, everyone starting talking about Renji and Nozumu. Even Chizuru was.

' Ryu! Please tell me why did they broke up! How ? What happened ? When did they broke up ? '

Once again, I got flooded by a thousand never-ending questions from Chizuru. I did not know what to say so I just kept quiet. But I did told her about the truth or dare incident.

' What the, how could Nozumu do that ?! Renji must be very sad! '
I nodded my head slightly.

I turned behind and looked at Renji. He's so much worst than me. Renji had 38 Chizuru(s) surrounding him asking about the break-up incident. At least I was far more better than him, one Chizuru is enough, seriously. I turned to look beside me. Chizuru was not there! She became one of the 39 now, trying to squeeze her way through the crowd, getting Renji's attention.

I heaved a sigh, ' It's just a break up and everyone treats it like the world is ending. '

Even Chizuru was so interested in the break up. I was left alone there. And anyway, it's pretty obvious too. Come on, what was I to Renji, he was obviously far more better than me, in everything.

' Brrrr brrrr, ' My phone started vibrating. I looked at the screen, it was Grandma.
' Ryu! Your parents met in an accident! Please come over to Koniyoha Hospital now!

'The phone line went dead... my eyes widen in shock. I quickly grabbed my bag and ran out of the classroom. I didn’t even bother telling Chizuru, even if I did, I don’t think she would even bother about me. Renji was more important to her afterall. On the way there, I thought a lot.

‘How could this happened? I have so much things to say to them. I still have so much things I want to prove to them. I have not studied hard and work to earn money and support them. I-‘
I broke down and cried. What will happen if I just lost them like that. I couldn’t get rid of this uneasy feeling in my heart. I told the taxi driver to drive faster.

I reached the hospital, and I saw Grandma. And it really did happened, I- lost them. She was in tears. She was crying. Great tears began oozing out of my eyes, and rolling down my cheeks. ' How could this happen? I didn’t get the chance to see them for the last time.. ' I said in a voice barely above a whisper. I leaned against the wall, hugged my own knees, overwhelmed by my own misery. Grandma began to hug me.

' Ryu.. your parents are--are--are dead. I'm so sorry. By the time they were admitted here, it was too late. They lost too much blood and now .. '

What am I then ? An orphan ? I'm only left with Grandma. Nobody else. When I was brought into this world, Dad, Mum & Grandma were the only ones that took care of me. I had no more other relatives. Grandma was not very healthy too. She had diabetes, and had not much time to live on. It was only a matter of time before I lose Grandma too..

I moved over to Grandma's place, which was nearer to my High School. Dad and Mum's assets were given to me and Grandma, mainly because we were the only kins they had. Whenever I went back home, the house was so much more quiet as compared to the past. That big house was so empty, only Grandma and I were living in it. Last time, Mum was always at home. Each time I reached home, no matter how early or late, she would always greet me, ' Welcome back, son. How is your day today ? '

The next day of school, was abysmal. I didn't even had the mood to study. I just sat there, with my head on the table. Not listening to what Sensei was teaching. Chizuru did not feel right. She knew something was up with me, but I guessed she did not dare to ask.

' Yes Chizuru ? For the past 1 hour and 30minutes, you've been staring at me, not paying attention. '

" Ryu, you too, not paying attention. What happened? "
' Nothing, no point telling you either. 'And for the whole day in school, I did not pay attention, I just stared into space. And Chizuru, looking at me for the whole day too.

Grandma passed away gradually. And true enough, I'm all alone. I cried for many days and nights, losing my only kin I had left in this world. I was so disheartened by the mournful truth. It felt like the end of the world. The agony was almost more than I could bear. But I still held on, remembering Grandma’s last words. ‘Heaven is a place nearby, so I won’t be so far away. Ryu, you have to continue with your own life. Everyone will die, and my time it's up.’ With that Grandma smiled and passed away.

Times were hard for me but I did not give up. But one day, I broke down and cried, after school at the usual bench, with Chizuru beside me.

' Now I'm left with nobody. I'm all alone now.
'' You are not alone, Ryu. I'm here, remember. You've been that day at the rooftop. And I'll be there for you too. ' She patted me on the back.
' Really ? ' I asked her , with my really really wet eyes because of my tears. 'She nodded her head slowly.
' That's what you said. Please do not leave me, ' I hugged her tightly, never wanting to let go.

But she did not kept her promise.. I should have expected that in the first place. I shouldn’t have carried so much hope, too much hope then even now when I thought of it, it hurts..

I touched the cold stone infront of me and whispered, 'I'm sorry Dad, mum, grandma.' I kneeled down in front of their graves.

I specially used the money they had left me to have their graves together, at least, they would find peace in the other world. ' I know I have not been a filial grandson or son, it's obvious that you all were disappointed in me. Don't worry, I promise you, I will work hard to make you proud of me. '

Emotion ran down my cheeks like it became a stream of sorrow. Water dripped on my hand and the cold stone from the sky , it was drizzling. I did not want to leave that place, the place that I could only feel my family's presence. I closed my eyes, reminicing about the blissful and happy times we had together . Having a family caring for each and other is the best thing you could ever had in life. However, I lost mine early. And I regretted for not cherishing them when they were around ..

As usual, attended school the next day. Chizuru suddenly became really talkative, and she did not even stopped talking at all. For the whole of Maths period, and half of Science period. She fell asleep in the middle of Science period. Probably she was talking too much and felt tired. I smiled. What more could I ask for ? Looking at her with her head on the table , smiling while she was sleeping was everything to me.

That month was Febuary already , and Valentines day, was of course, around the corner. I did not know what Chizuru liked at all, and did not know what she wanted. I went to the nearby shopping mall and looked around. I was intending to confess to her on Valentines day. I walked around, and saw something that caught my eye.

It was a really adorable soft toy Pig holding a heart in its hands. I was very sure , it really do looked like Chizuru, especially when she was asleep. I smiled faintly to myself, I did not know why, out of the sudden, I was feeling so weak. I could barely stand up straight. I leant backwards to the wall, trying to balance myself. I felt like falling. I felt like fainting, and the next moment, I passed out.

I woke up, in a very unfamiliar place. It was the hospital. A doctor came in.

' You're awake, Ryuzaki ' The Doctor said as he flipped through a file of documents.

' What happened to me ? ' I shook my head as there was an unbearable pain streaming through my brain and head.
' I doubt you have been sleeping well and enough lately. You've passed out ealier on due to exhaustion. You'll be alright in a few days, meanwhile, stay in the hospital for another two days as we still need to observe you. '

' Thanks doctor . ' I lied down and began to wonder. If my family members were still alive, they'd be right there by my side. Sadly, they were not there anymore. I felt so lonely, so alone, without anyone by myself. I began to miss Chizuru a lot, wondering if she knew that I was admitted to the hospital.

The door knob turned. ' Surprise! ' , It was Chizuru, her sweet voice gave me a shock. I was indeed really surprised! I smiled jubilantly, I never expected her to be here. And behind her, was Renji. He was holding a basket of fruits.

' I hope it's not papaya, please. You know I hate papayas. ' I tried to look into the basket.

' There are papayas. And you have to eat it! ' Chizuru said with a big grin with her face.' Papayas are good for health. Especially for those who are sick.'

'I'm not sick, I'm just tired. ' I tried to defend myself from eating sickening papayas.

' It's the same. Just eat it and you'll be fine by tomorrow. ' She laughed.

I did not mind. Even if I have to eat 1000 papayas just to see Chizuru's smile again, I would not mind. However, things did not turn out the way it should be. Because I realised, Chizuru was not smiling for me anymore ..

It was 14th of Febuary already, with the cute little pig and a note attached to it in my hands, I walked to school, in a very good mood. I was ready to confess to Chizuru, as well as hoping that she would like the gift I prepared. I kept thinking of the reactions she would give. I smiled when I thought about it.

However, when I stepped in the classroom, the first sight made my heart shattered, like a glass dropped onto the ground and scatter. I could not believe what I just saw. Everything seemed so beautiful before that day, and now , it became something that I did not expected.

Renji , holding on to a bouquet of roses, asked her to be his girlfriend and to my surprise, she nodded her head with a shy smile and bright red cheeks. I could not believe what I saw. I thought Chizuru had already forgotten about Renji. She promised to be with me, and never to leave me. But ..

I didn’t expect that to happen. I thought Renji didn’t like Chizuru. So why was that happening?

There was no use for the cute little pig anymore. I threw that cute little pig that resembles Chizuru into the trashbin, and ran to the toilet to cool myself down. I could not resist and my tears started to run down my face. This unrequited love. This time I really knew what it meant by , the greatest grief comes from despair.

After Chizuru started dating with Renji, she spent lesser time with me. During lessons, she would always turn to talk to Renji. They seemed so perfect for each other. There wasn't any room for me. Renji seemed to notice my feelings for Chizuru.

‘Ryu, don't try to lie to me. Do you like Chizuru ? '

I was shocked. I thought I hid my feelings very well. I tried to smile whenever they were together. I thought nobody knew my feelings for Chizuru. I realised I had no choice but to tell the truth .

‘Yes, I like her. But both of you now are happy with each other, so what's the point of asking this right now ?’

I knew I couldn’t hide anything from Renji. We had been friends for so many years. He would have known if I lied.

‘I know. You can't give up on her right ?'

How could he have thought that my feelings for Chizuru was so easily to be given up. If I could give up on her, I would have done so since the first day I knew she loved Renji.

‘It's been a long time, I don't think I'll be able to do so. '

‘Then let’s have a basketball match next Friday. If I win, you give up on her. If you win, I’ll break up with her.’

‘Okay then.' I agreed.

I shouldn’t have accepted the offer. I knew the match was at my disadvantage. But who am I to say anything? I’m not even Chizuru’s boyfriend. I should be happy that Renji gave me a chance. I spent everyday to train my basketball skills. Hoping that it would boost my chances of winning.

And here it was, the Friday, that Renji and I were supposed to challenge in a basketball match. Chizuru was sitting at our usual bench while Renji was warming up on the court. We both agreed that the match point be 15. Renji smiled at me in a cunning manner, ‘you're so gonna lose, Ryu. '
And the match started.

Chizuru knew nothing about it , nothing. She thought we were just playing for fun.I knew that if she would to know what that match was for , she would have felt dejected by the truth. I was pretty stunned that I was able to score in as many as Renji. I shot in a 3-pointer and the score was 14-14, which meant it was the last ball to the match point. When I wanted to shoot in the last ball, Renji purposely tripped over my leg and fell over. The next moment, he was crying in pain. Chizuru rushed to the court.

'Ahhh... it hurts! I think I sprained my leg! ' Renji blamed me.

'But, I did not...!' I tried to defend myself but Chizuru snapped into the conversation.

' Hey Ryu! It's only a match, nothing more. Why must you do this to win?' Chizuru said while helping Renji with his leg.

'Let me apply some medication for you. Come on, let's go over to my place.' Before I could say anything, Chizuru helped Renji over to her house. While limping back to Chizuru's place, Renji turned back and smiled cunningly. I was fuming in anger, why did Renji totally became another person? Someone I did not even know.

The next day, another matter made me furious. Chizuru was ignoring me, she did not even bother to look at me. I felt flustered for taking up the blame when I did not even do anything wrong.

'Sensei, may I request for a seat change?' Renji voiced up from behind, alerting the whole class in the middle of the maths lesson while Goku-Sensei was teaching.
'Why Renji? Aren't you fine behind with Ichigo?' Goku-Sensei questioned Renji when he put down his textbook.
'Yes I'm fine here. But I’m afraid that my eyesight is getting bad and I can't really see what you're writing now. I would like to swap places with Ryuzaki. He agreed that he would change places with me today when I talked to him about it yesterday.' He lied.I turned behind and glared at him. I did not even agree about swapping places or even hearing him talked about it. And before I could say anything, Chizuru thanked me.

' ThanksRyu! You're so sweet!' She smiled to me, sweetly and politely.'Very well then. If Ryu is okay with it.' Goku-Sensei continued with his lesson.
I faked a smile back to Chizuru and moved behind while Renji smirked at me while he feigned a limp over to my seat.' Thanks, Ryu my brother. 'I stared at him lividly. I sat down and thought it through a lot.

How does it feel when that person you treated best now betrays you? The person that you regarded as a best friend is now with the girl you loved most. That was how I felt. He stabbed me on my back , thrice with the same bloodstained knife.

First, it was Renji and Chizuru, getting together as a couple when one was my best friend, and the other was the girl I loved most. Second time, lied to Chizuru, faked a fall and a sprained leg . And I did not even do anything wrong. Thirdly, lying to Sensei saying that I agreed to swap places with him when I did not even remember doing so.I just kept quiet, real quiet. I did not even think about having revenge. I forgave Renji, but I will not forget what happened. And I finally realised why I kept in silence. It was because of Chizuru.

I am willing to sacrifice everything I have for her to be happy. Renji was smart. He outsmarted me, knowing that I'd not tell her because I loved her too much. And also, even if I told her about the incidents, would she have even believed me?

'Ryu, are you free tomorrow?" Chizuru asked me over the phone.

Her voice made it clear that she was happy and excited. I wonder what had happened to make her be in such a good mood.

'Yeah, why Chizuru?'
'Great! Err...you see...' Chizuru began shyly. 'It'll be me and Renji's sixth month anniversary soon and I need to get him a gift! Would you accompany me tomorrow please?' She pleaded.


So that was why she called me? That was the reason for her cheerily mood? I should have expected.

'Yeah, sure.' I agreed. What else could I still say?

In my heart, I could feel jealous aching. The feeling of being jealous sucked, it was so unbearable. I went to sleep immediately to prevent myself from thinking about it and hoped that tomorrow would pass soon.


The next day, I met Chizuru at the nearby shopping mall. While we were walking around, we saw Renji across the street. Chizuru had wanted to walk over and say hi but stopped when she saw that he was not alone.

He was with Nozumu, his ex-girlfriend. To top it off, they were kissing...passionately. My eyes widen in shock before I turned to look at Chizuru. She was crying. Really crying. I caught a glimpse of her eyes before she turn to leave. shock, hurt, torment, betrayal flashed in her eyes. I could feel her heartaches. Because when she was hurt...my heart aches for her too.

When I turn back to look at Renji, I saw him coming over to our direction. I just he knew that Chizuru had seen what he did.
'Did she see what happened?' Renji asked me. I can't believe he had the cheek to ask me that.

' Well obviously you bastard! What the hell do you think you're doing ? Do you know you have just hurt Chizuru ?! ' I shouted at him and refusing to let him chase after Chizuru.

' None of your business , just let me go . I need to chase after her ! ' Renji shoved me aside. I punched him and kicked him at his butt. He screamed in pain. I did not bother much and ran after Chizuru.

She ran and ran. And finally, she stopped at a bench of a park. She sat down , with her hands covering her eyes and wept bitterly. Her tears kept falling. I didn't know what to do or what to say at that point of time. I sat there, beside her, with my hand placed behind her back, patting her, slowly.

After a few hours. She told me she was tired and felt like going home. She smiled to me, real sweetly and gratefully. She said, ' I'm fine Ryu, and thanks. ' I smiled back. I didn't know that was the last smile I would ever get to see from her. I sent her home after that.

I thought that she would be fine after a good night rest. I made a mental note to call her in the morning the moment I wake up.

The next morning, after brushing my teeth, I looked at the alarm clock. 9.30AM. I guess Chizuru would be awake by now. I made my way to where my phone is and dialed her number. For the first time, nobody picked up. I was getting worried. I kept calling and calling. After awhile, the call was answered.

'Hello, Chizuru? How are you feeling?' I asked with concern but was answered with sobs. 'What happened, Chizuru?' She didn't reply me, instead she continued sobbing. Now I was really worried, 'Chizuru...?' I asked again, hopping that she would answer me this time. 'Chizuru...my baby...she...' I was surprised to hear Chizuru's mom voice on the phone. 'What is it aunty?' I asked worriedly. Chizuru never let anybody touch her phone. 'She jumped down from the window yesterday night...'