I touched the cold stone infront of me and whispered, 'I'm sorry Dad, mum, grandma.' I kneeled down in front of their graves.

I specially used the money they had left me to have their graves together, at least, they would find peace in the other world. ' I know I have not been a filial grandson or son, it's obvious that you all were disappointed in me. Don't worry, I promise you, I will work hard to make you proud of me. '

Emotion ran down my cheeks like it became a stream of sorrow. Water dripped on my hand and the cold stone from the sky , it was drizzling. I did not want to leave that place, the place that I could only feel my family's presence. I closed my eyes, reminicing about the blissful and happy times we had together . Having a family caring for each and other is the best thing you could ever had in life. However, I lost mine early. And I regretted for not cherishing them when they were around ..

As usual, attended school the next day. Chizuru suddenly became really talkative, and she did not even stopped talking at all. For the whole of Maths period, and half of Science period. She fell asleep in the middle of Science period. Probably she was talking too much and felt tired. I smiled. What more could I ask for ? Looking at her with her head on the table , smiling while she was sleeping was everything to me.

That month was Febuary already , and Valentines day, was of course, around the corner. I did not know what Chizuru liked at all, and did not know what she wanted. I went to the nearby shopping mall and looked around. I was intending to confess to her on Valentines day. I walked around, and saw something that caught my eye.

It was a really adorable soft toy Pig holding a heart in its hands. I was very sure , it really do looked like Chizuru, especially when she was asleep. I smiled faintly to myself, I did not know why, out of the sudden, I was feeling so weak. I could barely stand up straight. I leant backwards to the wall, trying to balance myself. I felt like falling. I felt like fainting, and the next moment, I passed out.

I woke up, in a very unfamiliar place. It was the hospital. A doctor came in.

' You're awake, Ryuzaki ' The Doctor said as he flipped through a file of documents.

' What happened to me ? ' I shook my head as there was an unbearable pain streaming through my brain and head.
' I doubt you have been sleeping well and enough lately. You've passed out ealier on due to exhaustion. You'll be alright in a few days, meanwhile, stay in the hospital for another two days as we still need to observe you. '

' Thanks doctor . ' I lied down and began to wonder. If my family members were still alive, they'd be right there by my side. Sadly, they were not there anymore. I felt so lonely, so alone, without anyone by myself. I began to miss Chizuru a lot, wondering if she knew that I was admitted to the hospital.

The door knob turned. ' Surprise! ' , It was Chizuru, her sweet voice gave me a shock. I was indeed really surprised! I smiled jubilantly, I never expected her to be here. And behind her, was Renji. He was holding a basket of fruits.

' I hope it's not papaya, please. You know I hate papayas. ' I tried to look into the basket.

' There are papayas. And you have to eat it! ' Chizuru said with a big grin with her face.' Papayas are good for health. Especially for those who are sick.'

'I'm not sick, I'm just tired. ' I tried to defend myself from eating sickening papayas.

' It's the same. Just eat it and you'll be fine by tomorrow. ' She laughed.

I did not mind. Even if I have to eat 1000 papayas just to see Chizuru's smile again, I would not mind. However, things did not turn out the way it should be. Because I realised, Chizuru was not smiling for me anymore ..